I'm missing you like crazy I think I'm going mad I simply can't stop thinking of the special times we had.
Each moment lasts an hour Each hour lasts a day The clock is ticking slowly Just because you went away.
I need you here beside me I just want to see your face To feel your precious heartbeat And be lost in your embrace.
I gaze out of the window And look up at the moon I play the waiting Game And pray you'll be here soon.
They say hope springs eternal Well I only hope it's true For I can't bare the emptiness That comes from missing you.....
周杰伦 - 黑色幽默
15:46
Friday, October 17, 2008
16:05
i'm missing you so much..
Thursday, October 16, 2008
no regrets
11:27
i never once regretted falling in love with her.. it's one of the best moments in my life though it's not for long being together i love and appreciate every moment of this relationship..
And I thank god for letting me.. have you in my life..
lastly I thank you..
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
DAMN IT!!!
15:17
OH MAN!!! i feel so useless.. i can't even do my work properly.. i really hate myself.. going to get fucked by people tonight..
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07:28
was out with michelle.. went to a karaoke joint till 6am.. drank water (overdose on alcohol).. wrote her a text saying that i'm willing to back out and not to stop her from doing what she really wants.. i really do love her alot.. and i know i can't be selfish.. if you love someone you got to let her go.. if she really belongs to you she will be your's again one day.. but my heart is still in pain.. it has already stop 'beating' once she said those words to me, tears just drop uncontrollably..
two nights before she said those words to me.. i was already having this bad feeling.. was actually quite down and she felt it.. ask me what's wrong but i never did tell her.. actually i wanted to ask her.. is she for real? is she ready to built a future with me? cause i really do not want to get hurt again.. but what the use anymore.. it has come to an end..
time will heal the wound as people always said.. even though it's healed there's always the scar that reminds you why you got hurt in the first place.. can't sleep, can't eat, no mood.. can't even smile properly.. i'll just get stoned and gazed at no where.. even now when i'm writing this down.. tears are falling and i don't even know what am i writing anymore.. listening to the song 画心 repeatedly..
staring into space right now.. even when i'm so tired.. i just can't sleep, maybe i shall just shower and do my work.. just to forget her and my hurt.. work myself till i'm just a tired soul.. so i could force myself to sleep.. i do not wish to resort to cough syrup to make myself drowsy enough to sleep.. bad habit.. chain smoking like nobody's business.. but for now i shall stay away from alcohol.. really overdose on it and got hell drunk and puke for the first time drinking vodka!! i don't puke on vodka.. but i did maybe cause i drank almost the whole bottle and real fast.. urgh!
i'm missing her so much.. i miss her way of talking, her expressions, her smile, her joyful laughter, her gentle ways of making you feel everything's gonna be alright, even when she's in a bad mood.. i love her and i still do.. please do not tell me time will make me forget her.. cos it'll be for a very long time before i can..
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
21:19
i feel so cold.. so cold..
A question..
14:37
got drunk yesteday but...
no matter how much i drank..
i can't numb the pain in my heart..
Monday, October 13, 2008
泪
20:30
My heart has stopped beating once more..
let's get drunk tonight!
20:15
爱着你像心跳难触摸 画着你画不出你的骨骼 记着你的脸色是我等你的执着 你是我一首唱不完的歌
Sunday, October 12, 2008
画心 - 张靓颖， 《画皮》电影原声主
15:56
看不穿是你失落的魂魄 猜不透是你瞳孔的颜色 一阵风一场梦爱如生命般莫测 你的心到底被什么蛊惑
你的轮廓在黑夜之中淹没 看桃花开出怎样的结果 看着你抱着我目光似月色寂寞 就让你在别人怀里快乐
爱着你像心跳难触摸 画着你画不出你的骨骼 记着你的脸色是我等你的执着 你是我一首唱不完的歌
看不穿是你失落的魂魄 猜不透是你瞳孔的颜色 一阵风一场梦爱是生命的莫测 你的心到底被什么蛊惑
你的轮廓在黑夜之中淹没 看桃花开出怎样的结果 看着你抱着我目光比月色寂寞 就让你在别人怀里快乐
爱着你像心跳难触摸 画着你画不出你的骨骼 记着你的脸色是我等你的执着 你是我一首唱不完的歌
你的轮廓在黑夜之中淹没 看桃花开出怎样的结果 看着你抱着我目光比月色寂寞 就让你在别人怀里快乐
爱着你像心跳难触摸 画着你画不出你的骨骼 记着你的脸色是我等你的执着 我的心只愿为你而割舍
why?
04:12
i know that it's been a while since i wrote.. but been busy with my work and 'renovating' my room for her arrival.. :)
as the day creeps nearer.. my heart has been beating way too fast.. i'll never forget what my ex has said to me before she left.. she gives me just 6 mths before i can't take it anymore..
my ex has gotten back with her ex.. that's fast of her.. maybe she was keeping some stuff from me too.. i still feel that i do not know much bout her.. i could say i've got no chance to anymore cause when i broke up with her, she decided to go back to china.. the funny thing is before i broke up with her she already knows that i'm going to do that.. and the more weird thingy is that even if i twitch my backside *lol* she knows what i'm gonna do/say.. scary but endearing.. we have said that we shall remain as friends and she wish me all the best in my work.. at the same time worried that i'll taken advantage off cos i'm always too nice..
i just hate it when my other half does not tell me the truth.. hate that feeling so much.. i rather be told the truth then to find out by myself and feel even more hurt..
today was at my previous work place, my business partner got drunk, called me to go down and save him.. when i went down i saw him.. he was so drunk that he was shivering so badly that we almost wanted to send him to the hospital.. in the end he got better and i sent him back.. will check on him tomorrow when i wake up..
after that i was at a coffee shop having my dinner before heading back home.. was watching the korean movie called stupid or in Chinese 傻瓜.. as it's in Korean it'll be abit draggy but it's a very touching storyline.. i seldom cry during movies but this has touch my heart and tears came out naturally.. so embarrassing lor.. if you got the chance to watch it.. go for it.. i like it.. another is the show call kungfu dance thingy hahaha in Chinese is 劲舞门 i think so.. like all the dance moves.. i always have a thing for female DJ so she aka Fan BingBing has gotten my heart.. just in that movie k.. she sings not bad too.. lol
that's it.. shall go for a smoke now.. then to talk to my gf.. :)
