today is the third day of the chinese new year.. time flies.. valentine's day is coming.. missing her so so so so much that a few days ago we met online.. it's a moment that i can't really explain how i felt at that moment.. let me try to describe it.. it's like everything that's jumble in my life have settled down everything that's impossible is now possible.. there's no hesitation in my mind and heart that i love her.. and i want to spend the rest of my life with her vice versa.. but it's the paperwork the red tape that's preventing us from being together.. it's putting a strain a very bad strain to our r/s.. i hope, i wish and i really pray very very very hard that she can come over for good.. if not.. *sigh*