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good morning.. very sleepy now actually.. having arrive in seoul not long ago.. everthing is closed right now as it's still early over at their side.. i've got 5 hours to spare before boarding the next plane to Chicago... urgh... a 13 hour flight.. oh my goodness my butt will hurt like hell.. already a 6 hour journey makes my butt feels a bit sore.. LOL.. damn my phone can't roam in korea and should be in US too due to wad different kind of phone is needed.. OH MAN!!! No choice.. who ask me never check with starhub before i travel.. stoopid me.. :( Online now but my friends r all sleeping like pigs.. you noe who u r huh.. haha.. while writing i'm charging my phone.. Siken if u read this pls tell sharon tt traveling with Korean air sucks.. :P but the stewardess still can make it.. LOL.. i think i shall pen off for now.. really sleepy.. going to find a place to rest my eyes.. till the next time then.. :)
Saturday, July 30, 2005
Mistakes mold us as characters; without them we fail to be human. Most of us don't understand this though, oddly enough. We make up 'three strike' rules and believe in second chances. All in attempts to assure us if we made a mistake, we're given another chance to undo a wrong. But really, is this right?
We as people hate regret. We don't like thinking 'what if' or 'i could of' or 'should of' senarios. We always want to make the right decisions and if we don't we want another chance. But seriously, should life work that way?
Regrets make us ignore other opportunities. It's no different than dwelling on missing one cab as thousand of other cabs wisk by you. There are other cabs on the road of life (bad image yes, but it helps prove my point.) Learn what you did wrong to miss the first cab; fix your mistake and avoid the mistake you made and wait for the next cab. If you never get another cab again, teach others from your mistake to ensure they never miss cabs themselves. But chances are, you'll get another cab. There are too many cabs in our world to say you'll only catch one in your entire life.
Enough of the cab image. Regret can be made even more difficult when love or any other emotion is added into the mix. It clouds your logic and makes you do things that feel right for the moment as later logic kicks back in and you realize how unright it now feels. Yes, even I've been down that road. One too many times.
Live life with no regrets. You've missed one cab; make sure you fix what you did wrong so you don't miss another. Lose the regret... gain hope. Be at peace with your mistake and learn from it. Attempting to recreate the past only turns it into a 'play' and not reality. Second chances can make situations lose that spark that was original found the first time. Move on. Pick yourself up.
And await the next cab.
this was taken last week.. hehehe... tt's me, my sis, Siken and johnathan
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
wad a day..
23:17
Yup.. today after work went to meet up with siken, kenneth and Meihui at somerset starbucks.. met up with amanda too.. then she drew me the picture with my name.. cool eh.. love it alot.. i've got another picture of the panda on the back of my phone too.. it looks so cool.. love it so much.. I THANK YOU AMANDA for your wonderful artistic drawings.. LOVE YOU LOTS!! HEHE.. =] After that we went our seperate ways with manda as she met up with her bf.. uh huh.. :P went for dinner at takashimaya b2 got one new teppanyaki style restaurant.. tried the steak and hamburger style with veg set.. very nice.. siken had the black pepper rice.. kenneth had the cup kind of tuna salad.. and Meihui had the hamburger one.. very nice wor!! Evee.. if u ever come to s'pore i bring u there to try out the food k.. =]
while eating met up with johnathan and 2 other poly friends ashlynn and shirley.. crap quite alot after dinner we just hang out at the podium of takashimaya while all of them except me and shirley was smoking.. yeah me and shirley was the passive smoker.. *urgh* we chatted somemore.. till it's time for us to go back home.. tired lah.. not enough sleep wor.. lastly my elder brother just came back from Japan with his wife bought us biscuit with white chocolate filling from hokkaido.. it's nice but very sweet.. and i've got a handphone strip with Totoro character!! yup.. shall pen off for now.. eyes closing any minute...
Slow and Steady 
They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder.
It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment.
They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.
The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.
In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.
Sunday, July 24, 2005
Mixed emotions...
15:20I dun noe why but i feel like i'm losing my touch.. the ability to understand someone, using my so called 6th sense? Feels like i'm running away from everything, dun wan to face anything at the moment.. too many feelings in me i dun noe if it's mine actually.. been feeling lots of heartache this few days, at 1st i thought it's mine.. but i found out otherwise.. hmmmmz.. this is really getting more n more weird to me.. as i'm writing this i'm reflecting on wad's been going on this past mth.. Why is she keeping things from me? Why dun she just be direct with me? i thought we have nothing to hide at all from each other? yeah.. i noe i noe i think too much tt's wad u usually tell me.. urgh! can't help it if u've not been urself lately i guess! Dun ask me who this person is ok.. she noes who she is.. 6 more days hehehe i'm out of this place for 2 weeks.. can't wait for it actually.. a mixture of excitment and nervousness, meeting someone for the very 1st time.. wondering how's it's gonna be like.. haha.. let's see how things goes then..
Life's unpredictable you never noe wad's gonna happen next..
Your Rising Sign is Scorpio
You're so intense and passionate - you're on fire!
You want to be an angel or a devil... you can't decide which.
No wonder you seem moody and even a little dangerious.
You've got some major mystery going on, so work it!
Your personality is the strongest of all signs, making you hard to deal with.
While you're ruthless to your enemies, you're loyal to your one true love.
Saturday, July 23, 2005
Your Hidden Talent 
You're the type of person who can turn a whole room around.
The potential for great leadership is there, as long as you don't abuse it.
Always remember, you have a lot more power over people than you might think!
You Are A Romantic Realist
You are more romantic than 50% of the population.
You tend to be grounded when it comes to romance.
Sure, you can fall hard... but only for someone you've gotten to know.
And once you're in love, you can be a total romantic goofball...
But you'd never admit it to your friends!
Friday, July 22, 2005
It's going so cold tonight.
A lonely tear went outside.
It was so cold, it couldn't find
a hand to hold or a gentle whisper
to say it's gonna be alright.
it regrets to go out along, over the
cold cheek in the cold night.
Leaving the eye of proud holding it
for years. finally it realized that,
it's ok to cry but it's not ok to wait
for someone to understand.
Hidden inside the eye, it was lonely but
it was safe. Now it will always be a memory
of weakness that's what it will be, a lonely
tear went outside in a cold night.
-M.
For your eyes only.. you know who u r..
01:17Your friendship is the sky above my home,
The crystal air I breathe, through which I see.
I can't believe how much you mean to me.
Without you with me, time would turn to stone.
I don't know why I need you so, or how
I know so absolutely I'll be there
In times your wounded heart can hardly bear.
I only know this truth is with me now.
Why is it in our lives that we need friends
To be awake and fully what we are?
Alone we dream but never cross the bar;
With you I share a grace that never ends.
N.G
Thursday, July 21, 2005
Part Expert Kisser
You're a kissing pro, but it's all about quality and not quantity
You've perfected your kissing technique and can knock anyone's socks off
And you're adaptable, giving each partner what they crave
When it comes down to it, your kisses are truly unforgettablePart Romantic Kisser
For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance
You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea
The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood
It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
Love is like a gust of wind
When it's done with it's blowing it then goes away
This kind of rhythm
No one can cope with that
Days without you
My soul goes out of control
As the dark cloud is landing upon me
I am pulled away by it
Stealthily, secretly, quietly leaving
Falling into the brink of danger
Baby~
My world has already been hit by a violent storm
Love has come too fast just like a tornado
Cant leave the windstorm circle, it's already too late to escape
I cannot think again
I can't
I cannot
Love has gone too fast just like a tornado
Cannot bear it anymore,as I have already nowhere to hide
I don't want to think again
I can't
I don't want to think of you again
Without I knowing it
You have already left me
Without I knowing it
I have followed this rhythm
In the hindsight
Passed by another autumn
In the hindsight
I should make good use of my life
by J.C
Sunday, July 17, 2005
You are elegant, withdrawn, and brilliant.
Your mind is a weapon, able to solve any puzzle.
You are also great at poking holes in arguments and common beliefs.
For you, comfort and calm are very important.
You tend to thrive on your own and shrug off most affection.
You prefer to protect your emotions and stay strong.
Saturday, July 16, 2005
Weird life i'm having..
03:03life's been getting more strange and weird for me.. that sometimes when you think bout stuff that you have done or said.. did i really do or say that.. but when asked if there's any regrets in any decisions i've made, that will be no.. as i believe wad ever choices you have made in your life or things that happen in your life.. there's alwaes reasons or meanings on why it happen.. so usually i'll just think back.. why did these kind of stuff happen to me.. blah blah.. lol i can tell you there's too many conclusions.. one friend of mine told me í think too much.. one said that i'm strange sometimes.. one said that i'm weird.. hmmmz.. wad am i actually now? do i care? haha nope! life still goes on.. lastly i'm very nervous, as the day i'm leaving for my trip is getting nearer, and things not going well for me.. let's just hope and pray that wadever things i need to get it done before the trip is fulfilled.. if not.. *shrugs*
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
wad path should i go to..? questions..unanswered again...
The Cross and Triangle spread is a powerful means of understanding complex situations, developed by the Hermetic Order of the Golden Dawn. This spread is rich in occult and mystical symbolism, and one of our favorites here at Facade. The Marseilles Tarot is an 18th century creation of obscure origins. It predates the occult symbolism of the Rider Waite deck by roughly 200 years, giving the readings a unique and rustic flavor. Many swear by this deck as the true oracle of the common man.
The first card, the significator, is placed in the center of the cross. This card represents the prime energy manifest in your life. Ten of Swords (Ruin), when reversed: The darkness before the dawn. An end to suffering, leading to spiritual transformation. A crushing and seemingly total defeat that hides within it the seeds of final victory. Ultimate knowledge gained through ultimate sacrifice.
The second card, placed above the significator, represents Air. It describes your spirit, process of thought, and the influence of reason. Reyne de Coupe (Queen of Cups), when reversed: The dark essence of water, such as a deep and foreboding lake: Discomfort with the worlds of mind and matter, leading to a retreat to the spiritual. The embrace of negative relationships, driven by the desperate fear of being alone. Devotion to fantasies and daydreams, to the exclusion of practical skills or the pursuit of knowledge. Insecurity leading to dishonor, vice, and undue susceptibility to outside influences.
The third card, placed to the right of the significator, represents Fire. It describes your motivations, creative energies, and the influence of passion. Valet de Coupe (Page of Cups), when reversed: The dark essence of water behaving as earth, such as a wellspring: An unexpected new relationship that is childish and foolish. An idle dreamer oblivious to the realities of the world. Moodiness, sad reflection, and retreat from society. Seduction and deception in personal and business relationships.
The fourth card, placed below the significator, represents Water. It describes your emotions, meditations, and the influence of love. Ace of Cups, when reversed: The seed of a destructive relationship or spiritual collapse. A missed opportunity for joy, contentment, fertility, or enlightenment. Failing to understand the emotional needs of those around you. May represent an unexpected message, a chance meeting, or the start of a friendship or romance.
The fifth card, placed to the left of the significator represents Earth. It describes your physical presence, position in life, and the influence of the material world. Six of Swords (Science): Trusting in intelligence and intuition and setting off into the unknown. Leaving an untenable situation and charting a new course. Passage from difficulty and progress towards a solution. The road to recovery. Travel and exploration.
At this point the cross is complete and the triangle is formed. The sixth card, placed on the bottom left of the triangle represents one of two opposing forces. Four of Coins (Power), when reversed: Using your power freely for your own enjoyment and the betterment of others. Coming to grips with progress and using your position to help it along. Finding security and identity someplace other than in the possession of material things. Letting go and encouraging others to find their own path. Being magnanimous and generous with your success.
The seventh card, placed on the bottom right of the triangle represents the force that opposes the bottom left card. These forces may be external, but they are frequently one's own inner archetypes in conflict. Cavalier de Coupe (Knight of Cups): The essence of water behaving as fire, such as a rushing river: A passionate romantic, full of charm and beauty, but prone to extremes. Forceful idealism blended with gentle kindness. An eager and intense person, forward with their emotions and tender in their support of others.
The eighth card, the reconciler, is placed below the cross in the third vertex of the triangle. This is the force that will resolve the conflict between the bottom left and bottom right cards. By meditating on this force and bringing more of it into your life, you can bring the matter at hand to a swifter conclusion than would naturally occur. La Papesse (The Popess), when reversed: Being confused and led astray from the true path. Spiritual deception. Overzealous and shallow-minded pursuit of the esoteric. Insecurity, conceit and self-destructiveness. The forces of nature unleashed.
The ninth and final card, placed in the center bottom of the triangle, represents the final outcome unless you change course. Le Pape (The Pope): Faith in tradition and the old school. A justified and ancient source of power. Being supportive, sympathetic and loyal. Receiving instructions, learning, guidance or inspiration. The ability to hear a higher or inner voice. May also indicate a religious ritual, such as a marriage or an initiation.
Monday, July 11, 2005
To Be With You
00:05I wish I can tell you what's in my heart
But the words won't come from the start
My legs start buckling and I feel weak
My tongue gets twisted so I can't speak
I stumble on the floor as I see your face
My mind feels so lost and out of place
I know that you left for me an open door
But I walk to the front and I cant no more
My hands get sweaty and I start to shake
And then I make another huge mistake
If I could only be a part of your world
I would do anything to be with you
I would cross the very ocean and the sea
Anything that would make you notice me
I'd sell my life; I don't care at any cost
Because without you I am lonely and lost
I would like to know if you feel the same
But I am afraid, so my secret will remain
But if I have to wait forever, that I will do
For I'll give my all to finally be with you
-S.K
Saturday, July 09, 2005
I have a friend
Who's really one of a kind
She's truly a friend
And always been there for me
She's been by my side
Through good times and bad
She's got a heart of gold
Her heart so pure
She sees the world differently than most
Which makes her better than those
Those who see only what they want
She's never judged me
She listens to my problems
And everything I have to say
She's always had patience with me
And always given me a second chance
She believes in me and has faith
She's been there for me
When I needed her the most
I want to thank my friend now
For all she's done for me
These past few years have been great
Because she's always there
© 2003 2hip2beasquare (All rights reserved)
Thursday, July 07, 2005
I hate Life
10:17kinda of like this poem.. so here it goes..
I hate life and life hates me
Why can't I just die and just let be
My friends get pissed
Why is my life hell
No one will tell
No friends to call friends
No one on on whom I depend
No home to call home
Thus this poem
They say they want to know me
But never see
The person who hides deep in me
The one that they will never see
The person they once knew is gone for ever
They won't see me not ever
I tried to be the person they liked
But it was like being thrown off a bike
The feeling of pain
As I went insane
Made me hide from the worlds hate
For it is my fate
When I die
No one will cry
They will thank god
For I am gone
© 2003 2hip2beasquare (All rights reserved)
I Care...
01:26When life seems too hard
remember I am always going to care.
You may not be able to recognize it,
but still I will always be there.
I look upon you with worry,
and know that no matter what you say your not alright.
You may not know but I will always be there for you.
I am here praying that you will not give up the fight.
You are weak, lonely, and fragile,
this I can see,
and I desperately want to help you,
help you to escape the person you pretend to be.
When you are crying without stop
I am there and I am crying too.
I want to make you better but I am lost on how,
I don't know what to do.
I wish I could make it better not so hard.
I really do but I don't know how to make u see
that I really do care and theres better ways,
but I don't even know how to help me.
- L
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
You're Beautiful
23:38My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.
- J.B
Monday, July 04, 2005
~*~Result nr 1~*~
Your power is: Clairvoyance
Explanation: Your power is that you can
look into the future and see what is coming.
How far and long you can look is all depending
on your skill level. This can, as all powers,
be used in both evil and good. Even if it may
seem like a boring ability it is a huge
responsibility for the carrier, becase they are
constantly tempted with doing the wrongs deeds
(e.g. cheat on a test). It takes high morals to
not be brought down with it.
Therefor you fit with this power quite well.
You take responsibility and do what is the
right thing to do. This does not make you a
saint, since you're only human after all. But
it makes a trustworthy person and you are loyal
to camrades and/or team mates. In school you
were probably a good student. If you were
social varies from person to person, but most
clairvoyant people tend to prefer their own
company or that of close friends and family.
That is because you are wise and knows how to
treasure the reliable in your life, since you
know popularity can be a false element. You are
also not that big on taking risks and prefer
what is already explored. That is because you
don't like surprises, they can turn out bad and
then you won't be in control.
Negative aspects: Since you're always
doing the right thing and being trustworthy all
the time you can become frustrated. Also, all
that you carry on your shoulders may stress you
out. You need to relax to be in good mental
shape.
What Power is Compatible With You?
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Saturday, July 02, 2005
Neoprint we guys took together! haha i look stoopid eh! LOL!
Use ur arrows keys to move left or right to view the picture eh.. :P