hmmmm.. yesterday went to Monica for a tarot reading with woon, ryan and sharon.. there's actually so much question in my head waiting to ask her.. but when i sat down to start i'm just lost of words... maybe i was uncomfortable as ryan and sharon was in the room.. so lastly i ask them to step out.. I'm sorry k really never wanted to do that but some stuff quite personal to me.. that i wan to ask wan to noe.. after they left.. i start to ask questions i need to noe.. Monica told me that i'm holding on to the past i must let it go in order to move on.. There's 2 girls in my life that's impt to me she says.. Yah in my heart i noe who they are.. she says i dunno wad i really wan.. like one moment i've got something, i'll start to feel that the other one is better.. as she said i'll mentally 2-timed them.. woah... i never thought that it could happen.. she says that i'm egoistic, arrogance and like to be in control.. if i dun do anything i'll lose them.. in my heart i say.. omigawd can this be really happening to me.. but most importantly i must make peace with my past, so that once i'm at peace everything will flow in smoothly.. i've actually started on it, i've got to make peace with one girl whom i lost during last year, it's actually very good.. i was really happy that we're friends again.. yap i making the step now.. actually feeling much better than yesterday.. haha it really take lots of my courage as when i'm down i can be fucking pessimistic.. oh yah she says i might move out of the country to start something new.. guess where's the venue.. it's US.. haha cannot believe it at 1st.. i dunno it'll happen 6 mths down the road.. hmmmmz... i just let it be if it happens it happens.. bout my career she says i dun appreciate wad i have.. must learn to be more appreciative.. yap.. *sigh* say that in order to be successful in my career i need to do that.. if not i'll be going no where.. so now i'm gonna start anew.. after the reading at least i've got some direction of where i wan to head to i'm not totally believing in it.. but i trust that life's fate is decided by one's decision and choices.. not by listening to others alwaes it's as though you're the puppet being in control by them..
lastly she ask me to draw a card out.. i drew a card call Goals..
Goals
The end or final purpose, boundary, line, or place at which a race is ended; the mark
What is your goal in this situation? Consider it from all angles. You may be surprised with what you learn. It may help you to become more clear and focused in your direction.
Great results can only be achieved when positive effort is directed toward your goals; focus on them.
It may be time to define your higher purpose. What do you truly want in your life? What are you aiming for? Can you see or feel yourself being led in a new direction? Follow that lead.
There is a need for you to stretch. Follow your intuition. Get up and go for it.
Perhaps it is time to redefine old goals that you have set for yourself. There is an opening of positive energy available to you at this time.
Maybe what you need is a good hard kick, aimed at getting you moving in a positive direction. Move forward.
Incredible heights can be reached, but it begins with a single step.
after she read it to me.. i was thinking woah.. i was so lost in which direction to go.. wad i want to do.. wad i wan in my life.. it's almost like someone just gave me a hard knock on my head to start thinking on wad i wan.. haha yes.. i'm moving on.. i'm just more worried bout woonie..
So later when after the reading of woon she took out another pack of tarot cards.. it's about words from the guardian angels.. mine was Omega..
Omega
Victory! Your desire is
coming to fruition,
Keep up the good work
" Congratulations! You have chosen to follow your Divine guidance, and The Universe is flowing in natural rhythm with your decision. When you listen to the messages that your heart whispers, you swim in natural synchronicity with the tide of your life's purpose. Stay relaxed and confident, and keep moving forward with happiness and grace.
" If, along the way, you notice problems occuring then it's time to stop and center yourself. When problems occur, it simply means that you're temporary out of sync with the Universe's rhythms. There is no need for analysis or shame when this occurs. Simply pray or meditate, breath deeply and wait until you feel strongly about your next move. Your victory is inevitable in this situation, so you needn't worry that temporary problems will thwart your desire. Whatever happens is supposed to happen, and when it happens is the correct time. Release your doubts to Heaven, and rest assured that a happy outcome is yours."
Nice eh.. it was drawn after i had been thinking of what i'm going to do next.. i will make it! pray for me arh! haha that's all.. need to go pom pom liao.. need to go out later.. will update my blog again.. till then..
THE END. (to be continued....)
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